Homesick

Today has been a great day! It is our first day out of school for the Christmas holiday and the plan was to head to the mall to see Santa. It's pouring rain but when we got to the mall, I got a close up parking spot right in front. Then in the area to see Santa, there was no line. That's right, five days before Christmas and there is no line. Sweet! Off to lunch at a favorite restaurant where once again there is no line, no wait for a table. We even had time for a long afternoon nap.

Even though I couldn't have asked for a better day, something was nagging at me all day. Sort of a heavy feeling hanging over me. Now there are real problems we are dealing with...things between G and his dad aren't great, a friend's mom is battling cancer, business isn't as good as we need it to be, several days ago was the shooting at a school in Connecticut that is still in the back of my mind. But what I was feeling today, wasn't based on any of those things. That just wasn't "it".

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks...I'm homesick. I'm homesick for a place I've been promised but never been to. I'm homesick for the end to tears and sickness and ready for some real peace. I'm homesick for days spent in joy, not worry or heartache. I'm homesick for heaven.

I can't wait to spend my days praising God. Just strolling through the streets of gold, holding my baby boy's hand, taking in the splendor of Heaven. I just can't wait! 

I am homesick, dear Lord. Come quickly!