Hurry God!

Sometimes I wonder just how much I can take before I finally crack. I know the Bible says that God will only give us as much as we can bear...but I'm down here crying out to God. I'm trying to tell Him I can't take any more. I'm not sure He is listening.

I am tired of being scared, tired of being nervous, tired of being cussed, tired of being treated like less than.........when does this end? I've done everything in my power to put distance between us. I've moved. Left my job. Left my friends. Made as much of a new life for us as I possibly can but it's not enough. It just doesn't quit. My hands shake. My stomach lurches. My nerves are on end. When will it end?

When will God step in on His awesome authority and deliver us from this pit? I want to live a life that shows others God's love, not my fear. I want to tell people how God delivers us, not be afraid at every turn. I want to step boldly out my front door and know that this thing that haunts us is GONE!

There's a song called "Before the Morning" by Josh Wilson. It says "Would you dare to believe you still have a reason to sing, cause the pain that you've been feeling, it can't compare to the joy that's coming, so hold on you gotta wait for the light, press on and just fight the good fight, cause the pain that you've been feeling, it's just the dark before the morning."

I'm trying to fight the good fight, just HURRY God! Please!