Today I read my friend J's blog (www.lotsofscotts.blogspot.com) about the joys of just watching your children. She spoke about this season, the only season, in which we will know our kids as children. The rest of their lives we will know them as adults. This gives us a unique chance to know them in this part of their lives.
As I reflected on this, I was saddened. I watched my son tonight act very much like an adult in a situation he shouldn't even be in, much less have to act mature beyond his years. He was talking to his dad on the phone. When his dad said, " I miss you" then G said it too. When his dad said, " I wish you could be here", G said it too. I watched G roll his eyes and make faces as he said these things to his dad. When he hung up the phone, I asked G about it. I couldn't understand the discrepancy I saw in his facial expressions versus the words he was saying. G told me, " I have to say those words to Daddy or he will cry and be sad. If I tell him I don't love him too, he will say 'why baby?' And I don't want to tell him that I don't love him because he is mean to people."
Whoa....here is my 5 year old trying to spare his dad's feelings. He is hiding what he really feels just so his dad won't be hurt. On one hand, I'm proud that he doesn't want to hurt feelings, but on the other hand, I want to him to always be honest with us. And I am crushed that this innocent little heart is having to deal with such hard things.
I am praying that in this season, the only season in which G gets to be a kid, that his burdens will be lifted. I am praying that he gets the chance to be carefree and that his innocence will be protected. And that his little heart learns that he can always lean on his Heavenly Father for anything.
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