God's grace

There are so many events to catch you up on. This past week has been a whirlwind to say the least. So to put it in a bit of chronological order for you..............

I got sick. Gross, throw up, fever, can't swallow, feeling dizzy kind of sick. At the time, it felt like the worst possible week to get sick. There was a huge event on Thursday that I could not miss. On top of my regular duties as teacher and mom, if there ever was a week not to be down with illness, this was it. But looking back on it, I think God chose this week for sickness on purpose. No time to be nervous or worry when you are sick. There is just no energy left for it. I can honestly say, "Thank you God for allowing this sickness to come when it did." 

Being sick also brought out the nurturing side of G. He brought me a drink when I needed it, checked on me often and even put his hand to my forehead to see if I had a fever. "Oh, honey.......", he said when I felt hot. This is one sweet kid!

So I obviously made it through the funk and went on to my Thursday. I won't give you all of the details, but the truth is that God has walked with us through Hell for about five years and he is showing us the other side. I know there is more, the enemy is not done with us yet, but for the first time in a long time I can see the light. I've had my doubts, that's no secret, but I can look back on it and see God's hand all along. Wouldn't it be nice if we had foresight also!

The temperament has really changed around our house this week also. I know that kids feel tension too and with Mom being sick, it throws even the best laid plans out of whack. But in our house, things have a totally different vibe. Cleaning usually brings out the whines and moans of procrastination. Not today. Today, my G. worked right along side of me. He wanted to organize, straighten and clean with me. He was a great help. I don't know if I can even adequately put it into words. It wasn't the chores that were done, it was the way they were done. With joy and love.

God's grace and mercy has been shown to me in so many ways in just a few days' time. Words are not enough, but they are all I have. Thank you God.