Anger

So I'm exchanging visitation of my son with my ex this morning...and sure enough, he starts a "discussion". It didn't turn into an argument because I called him out on doing it in front of G before he got too heated. He threatened calling the judge, reciting his version of his parental rights, and his version of past events. You understand that I say 'his version' because he seems to put a spin on things so that it looks like he is always the injured party. He apparently can't read the rules very well, or chooses to block out the parts that pertain to him, because they are written in black and white to be followed.

During this exchange, G's holding on to me for dear life. G is nervous. I am sweating. I'm sure our blood pressure was sky high. His anger scares me. It really, really scares me.

After coming home and calming down a bit, I pray for God to protect G. And thank Him for his protection this morning. Then I read my devotional.....it's about loving people like Jesus does.
It talks about how people are hurting. It talks about the good Samaritan and how he didn't pass by but stopped to help. It mentions that left to our own devices, we would act more like the Pharisees than like the Samaritan. The prayer at the bottom of the devotional says," Lord make me sensitive to the needs, the cares, the concerns, the hurts and the spiritual condition of those I come in contact with today."

The part about 'spiritual condition' hit home with me. My ex is an angry person. His spirit can't be in a good place and harbor that anger at the same time. Especially when he is angry at so much. It's just not this one thing that sets him off. I am upset with him, I won't hide that fact. But it reminded me to pray for him. I needed that reminder for his benefit as well as mine.

I don't want to have that kind of anger in my spirit either. I want to let go of it so I can be at peace. I pray the same for him as well.

Thank you God for reminding me when I forget, protecting me when I'm afraid, and for saving me when I was lost. I love you Lord.