I'm in a funk tonight. Nothing big has happened. Nothing new. I am just feeling down. There are a few things going on that I want to change but just can't at this moment. For instance, I really want to move. Living with my parents has been a life saver in more ways than one, but it is really hard to be both mom and daughter at once. Can anyone else relate?
On top of the normal things, G is having what I can only call 'flashbacks'. Seemingly out of the blue, he will start talking about the things that he has seen his dad do. Really bad things. While they are not new news to me, it still breaks my heart that he has been witness to them. He is six and is bearing the weight that not even adults should have to. He can't be secure in his own skin because he is constantly remembering.
So what can I do? Nothing really. Well, I pray. But lately it feels like my prayers are hitting the ceiling. So I vent to friends, have a good cry and move forward with tomorrow. My heart hurts tonight but I trust in the One who is always with me.
